it was a pleasant surprise. thanks larling. :D

 it sucks to be sitting at home since wednesday. i can already imagine how it's gonna be like staying at home for another week? oh mann! As i was laying down, i suddenly craved for potato chips(i finished Aniq's. hehehe.), chocolates, and chicken. Just saw the KFC advertisement just now!! oh mann!

No one to entertain me right now and it's going to be the same for the next three days until mom comes home from KL. Thank God there's my laptop and of course, dearest SyamilR. Oh mann, speaking of him makes me want to cry. Yes, crybaby. fuck. i rindu die tau. :( i feel like im in prison or NS because i won't be seeing him for another, hmm let's say, a week? OH MANN!!

I've been spending my new year's eve at work for the last two years and now when i want to have fun, i have to be sick! oh mann! i hate this. really really hate this.

Abah called and said, "Takpelah, da bagus dapat skarang. Kalau dapat bile nk kahwin, macam mane? heheheheh."

Oh mann, my dad laughed hehehehe. -______- Abah i miss you. :(

Okay enough said, im off to sleep. no no, definitely not sleep again. im off to do something else. :/

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              HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY HAZIMAH SAHARONI!
                         WE LOVE YOU, DEAREST! :)

Finally you've turned eighteenth ah babe. We hope you had fun with us ystd. We love you as much as you do too! :D

 i should have chosen my words wisely. i shouldn't have typed that word out. just because of that one text, im screwed. it felt as if i've lost one precious friend. :(

and yes, you should have chose your words wisely too. it hurts me the most  fyi because i was the one who suggested taking it. i cannot keep lying saying im okay when im not. i hope you understand.

Dear Furries,

if you decide to have sex in your fursuits, and if you decide to film yourself while doing so, and if you then decide to put your videos publically on the internet, maybe even under your regular nickname that anyone can google, please ...

- Do not take that same fursuit out to the streets to play with the children, people will google up your nickname, find sex videos besides pictures of you attracting children, and they WILL jump to conclusions concerning your motivation.

- Do not go to your favorite amusement park (I'll call it "Mouseland" for google's sake) wearing that same fursuit on halloween. NEVER EVER!

- Do not complain about the media getting the wrong idea. Because of you, it's NO LONGER the wrong idea. You define what we are, because "we" includes "you".

- Do not complain about being persecuted when people are suddenly all grossed me out, when they got hugged by a fursuiter, and later find out that the costume parts you touched them with were covered in jizz just a week before.

Holy shit, furries, you can do in your private bedrooms whatever you want. So do I. We all have our kinks, and so does the average guy next door. But LEARN SOME COMMON SENSE !!!!!!! Because no amount of trying to "set the record straight" or telling people how "misunderstood" we are can fix the damage you're doing to our community.

And, excuse me for getting personal here, but it's my personal LJ: The damage you're doing to my work. I've been devoting a large part of my life to furry fandom, and I've got a growing doubts if it's going to be worth the pain in the future, if a growing part of the community that I originally felt appointed to SUPPORT, suddenly starts negating what I love to do.

Thank you for listening to this public service announcement.

 maybe if im rich, i'll buy a laptop each for my siblings. Sorry sister, next time i'll lend you. hehehehe. you know, i'll consider myself lucky because he can tolerate me. tolerate my mood especially. thanks larling. hehehe. ;) This two jokers are my favourites tau.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON VOON!! WE LOVE YOU BABY! :)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUSTAKIM!! CATHAY LOVES YOU! :)
*gmbr fierce dok.. hahahahah!